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Re: [IP] damn damn damn

Hang in there Sara!  We're all on your side!


email @ redacted wrote:

> ARGHHHHHHHHH!!  if you don't want to listen to a vent, I suggest you go to the
> next message cuz this one is BAD!!!!!
> I am so frustrated with this F***ING disease!!!!  As most of you know, my eyes
> have been bleeding pretty much nonstop for the past few years, despite A1cs in
> the los 7s and upper 6s...espite not lifting and bending too uch, sleeping
> with my head elevated, blah, blah.  As the "most kind" eye doctors point out,
> yes, i know the bad control in my early years "let the horse outta the barn"
> and yada yada yada. I bleed and clearn bleed and clear...according to my
> doctor this is NOT new vessel growth, and hasnt been for a while, which
> indiactes good control  However, my vitreous is pulling away from my retina,
> which causes the bleeds...kinda like when you pick at a scab....
> comparatively relaxed, but by no means LAX, control due to the demands of my
> job,  and for the past week or so, I am back on my more strict
> regime...working out, logging, eating better, testing more than 8 times a
> day...avoiding lows...FEELING GREAT,. So is that why NOW my Freaking eye
> decides to bleed again!??!?!?!  I was jsut sitting here trying to figure out
> why AOL wouldnt let me read my mail...My bs is 145, I didnt pick up anything
> today other than my purse, I am not stressed - in fact I am HAPPY (if you can
> believe that...). It is 60 degrees, the sun in shining, it is a gorgeous
> day!!! It hadn't bled since mid December...It was almost clear - I was
> thinking about how I might be able to drive when I go to a wedding in
> Louisiana in May...I was thinking I might spend some money and get new
> glasses, now that it was clear enough to have a realistic exam...I was
> thinking how nice it was not to bump my head into kitchen cabinets cuz I
> could see them...and a dozen other things that I put on HOLD because of my eye
> - becausse of diabetes..
> I am just venting...Don't ANYONE tell me it could be worse - I could be
> completely blind, I could be in a wheelchair, I could be on dialysis, I could
> be on an iron lung, I could be skinny, beautiful and rich.  dont you think I
> know that?  But right now, right here, THIS is worst thing and I am pissed.
> not to mention the fact that I havent met my deductible yet for the year soI
> am gonna have to fork it out if I go see the doctor...
> damn damn damn damn
> Sara *-( =B xoxx~~~[507]
> (sara with her blind eye, sad frown, long neck, droopy boobs, scar around her
> belly button and her 507 on short tubing.....)
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