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RE: [IP] tired 4

These are all very helpful posts. i to get tired of having the pump but it
really is better than MDI's. I went to my endo today and talked about this
very thing. She is the best doc in the world. She had my labs and EVERY one of
of the tests are textbook perfect. She said the is so good for a 63 year old
man................YIPPEE!!   A1C is 6.0 and she doesn't want it any lower
than that. Anyway, the point of my story.....She said most of her patients at
one time or another goes through the "burnout" She said for me to try doing
something just for fun and don't worry about the diabetes for a day or two. i
said, how about half a dozen donuts. She said go ahead....adjust for it, have
your fun, then get back on the program. But do something to get you out of the
rut you're in......whatever that might be. She also said that it could be
worse and that I should be thankful for the health I do have but she said it
in a very compassionate way that did make me
 feel a bit better. It really could be worse for all of us. I'll give you an
example...........this very moment, my 6 month old nephew is in Children's
hospital fighting for his life. While at the babysitters, he supposedly
starting choking. The babysitter call 911 and when the paramedics arrived they
could see he was in serious trouble and not choking at all. the air lifted him
to the hospital...... Long story short. He has 4 skull fractures, is
completely blind, scars all over his little head, tubes everywhere and even
though he survived, which the doctors said he wouldn't, they did say what you
see is the way he will remain forever........ The babysitter admitted to
shaking him, throwing him (later denied it) and when they pumped his stomach,
it appears she poisoned him too. This babysitter is a long time family
friend.  So it you are inclined to pray please add him to your prayers. my
point is ......I GUESS IT CAN BE WORSE.
Thanks for listening
- On Thu, 6/16/11, RoseLea <email @ redacted> wrote:

From: RoseLea <email @ redacted>
Subject: RE: [IP] tired
To: email @ redacted
Date: Thursday, June 16, 2011, 4:30 PM

> I have no desire to go back to MDI.  I just don't want to be diabetic
> anymore.
> Sue

Sue, I'm with you.  There are some days I am just so tired of fighting with
this disease.  And, I recently had a conversation with my sister-in-law who
said, "It's not so bad at least it's treatable."  Well, she's lucky I didn't
just smack her in the head.

It is hard.  I know many of us hate it.  I don't think there's anyone here who
can honestly say they never feel frustrated and tired of dealing with this. 
But, I had a friend once who said, "It is what it is."  What's the
alternative?  Death.  I'm just not ready to face that chapter in my life yet. 
No matter how hard or how bad it gets.  I once made the statement here that I
would rather see dollars spent in finding a cure rather than all these fancy
devices to deal with diabetes and many people here criticized me and cut me
down for it.  But, I still stand by that.  I would rather see a cure!  I would
like to wake up one morning and not have to think about what my bg is and not
have to calculate what I'm going to eat, do or whatever for the day.  I would
like freedom from that.  But, I don't have that option right now.  It is what
it is and I deal with it.

I've gone through some bad times in recent years not only related to health,
but I'm just not ready to check out of this life yet.  I try to think of all
the good things I have.  My 15-month old grand daughter who gives me such joy
whenever I can see her (she lives 4 hours away from me).  And, I'm now waiting
for grandbaby #2 to make an appearance in about 8 months or so.  I think that
we just need to find some small spot of joy in our lives to make it all seem
worth living and dealing with.  I know it's not easy.

So Sue, email me when you feel really tired and bad.  Email me if you just
want to vent.  We all need someone to vent to who understands exactly where
we're coming from.  They may not be able to solve the problem, but if nothing
else, they can listen.  And sometimes it just helps to have someone listen,
and understand, and swear right along with us.


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