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Re: [IP] I still don't like pumping
On 2 Jan 2001, at 11:12, Judy wrote:
> Am I the only one? Everyone writes about how great pumping is, you all
> have super numbers, feel great, etc. My numbers are no better than they
> were on shots, and I don't feel any different.
> I cannot get used to wearing the pump. I put it in my bra and if falls
> out each time I bend over. If I stick it in my pockets, I pull the
> tubing when I go to the bathroom. I cannot find a comfortable way to
> sleep with it. The thigh belt won't stay up, and it falls out of shirt
I clip it on my belt on the left side (I'm right handed). I don't have
enough Up Top to create a little pocket to put it in (with it sticking
out farther than my natural profile does!), so I can't wear it in my
bra. Haven't tried the thing thing.
It did take a bit to get used to it trying to dangle into the toilet. I
think I'm just gradually changing my posture so that it dangles
At night, I put it in the front (center) pocket of my night shirt or I
wear it in a Clip-N-Go clipped to a Waist-it and I coil the tubing into
the Clip-N-Go, leaving enough room for the pump to slide out of my
way when I'm on my stomach.
I sort of see it like getting used to wearing a wedding ring.
Sometimes, when I bloat up too much, I take my rings off for a
week or so, and then I have to get used to not wearing them. THen
when I put them back on again, I have to get used to wearing them
all over again. My wedding ring has a couple of sharp points on it
that dig in when I do things wrong, and I have to get used to that
too. Or its absence.
> But this is the worst: I hate changing sites. Each time Something goes
> wrong and then I am upset for most of the day til I know the new site is
when I get frustrated and think it's not worrking, I'll do a syringe
now and then (with my Autoject of course!) instead of a meal bolus.
Then, when my BGs are back down, I start over with the pump and
go back to rigorous carb-counting, and food weighing and try again.
I also carefully choose my time of day for site changes. And if I
can't do it when I want to, I'll again use a syringe for meal & high bg
bolus until I can choose my time to suit ME.
I choose the time thusly:
* I have to have been awake for at least 3 hours and have drunk 2
cups of coffee (morning has always been the worst for me for
injections... I tended to avoid the morning long-acting dose, and
thus avoided morning BG testing so that I would'nt feel panicked
about my BG and feel pressured to inject when I wasn't emotionally
able to handle it)
* It has to be at least 4 hours before bed.
* It has to be at least 2 hours before physical activity.
I work swing shift or night shift so I guess my usual site change
time would be normal people's noon hour.
I change my site in my comfy chair. Not in the bathroom, standing
in front of the sink. Not at a table or desk, not on my bed. Only in
my comfy chair. This also tends to determine where the site is,
since it has to be easily accessible while *in* that chair. :-)
My parents decided to visit today before my planned site change
time. I was not going to change my site anywhere else but in my
comfy chair and I wasn't going to delay the change either! I was
supposed to go out to work in about 2 hours and I'd get back too
close to bed time. And I'd just gotten home from a doctor's appt so
I couldn't do it earlier. So they had to witness it. (Mom "wandered
off" to chat with my hubby until she decided I "must be done by
I get the tape ready to go by peeling off the backs and carefully
draping them over the arm of the chair while I'm priming and waiting
for the IV prep to dry.
Bruno the dog has to be not bugging me for anything.
I have to howl and sing or tell limericks while I'm pinching the skin
and getting ready to push the button (SofSerter), to distract me.
At someone's suggestion, I practiced the site changes on the arm
of my chair several times. (There's still tape goo on the fabric I
think, but oh well, it was important that my fingers learn how the
motions should *feel*)
> What is so great about this thing??? I have been on it for a month and
> ready to give up.
I'm so intensely needlephobic that knowing I had to shoot up
several times a day meant I was upset all day long every day. For
6 months. I never got used to it. I think even in 48 years I wouldn't
get used to it. To me, this is a huge relief from that constant
dread. I don't *avoid* eating anymore. (I'm underweight, always
have been and don't need anything else stopping me from eating!
It's way too easy to kill my appetite).
And I found having to carry syringes and bottles and my rather
large Autoject2 around with me in my purse to be incredibly
cumbersome. This "pager" on my belt *seems* a lot less
cumbersome. I don't have to remember to bring it cuz it's always
already there.. I don't have to think, "am I going to eat while I'm
out? do I need to bring my Stuff?"
Now, I can just stand up, grab my purse and go.
I can drive past Krispy Kreme and think..... hmmmm..... and turn
on my blinker..... :-) I couldn't do that before without going through
the dread that you feel about site changes. Now, I only have to go
through that once every 3-5 days (yes, most of my sites last 5
days with no apparent problems) instead of several times a day.
No more feeling suicidal several times a day. I can actually forget
about the dread most of the time now. Instead of having to fight off
the dread every day all day.
YMMV, of course.
People don't understand why I felt suicidal so often since being put
on insulin. They don't understand my intense needlephobia. So I
can see how frustrating it must be for you when we wax
rhapsodical while you're utterly annoyed with the whole thing.
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