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Re: [IP] Wow- Dan responds to a ltr. to myself

Dan Dan Dan

In this disease we don't always know whats going to happen next, although it
does sound like her doctor has her on too much insulin and not enough food,
yes she does have to be more careful we all have too, but Dan she needs you
to be understanding and to call her stupid does not help a diabetics
confidence.  I know with myself I seem to lack some self confidence due to
the fact that I am different I don't look different but I am no matter how
youlook at it.  Just listen to her and yes maybe you do need to remind her
to eat but this is where her discipline comes in, see I like to eat so I
don't get very many lows mind ya i'm not on the pump yet either, its taking
my insurance a long time to get back to me. But please do not call her
STUPID, or DUMB, because we don't always know whats going to happen.  Even
if we are in very good control.  Please agian don't be offended with
anything I say, but I was in a relationship where it took the gut 4 years
before he started to be even remotely interested in what was wrong with me
so please be gently we are not always aware of what our body needs.

Try relating it to sex, it just happens, not always a reason for it but it
happens anyways.

-----Original Message-----
From: Emily Miggins <email @ redacted>
To: email @ redacted <email @ redacted>
Date: December 14, 1998 5:58 PM
Subject: [IP] Wow- Dan responds to a ltr. to myself

>From: "Dan J.
>Subject: Re: a ltr. to myself
>To: email @ redacted
>Letter to myself,
>The night that Emily moved into her house was filled with emotions. We
>worked very hard to move everything in, and didn't have any food to eat. We
>were tired. Emily tested her blood - around 40. I asked her if she ate a
>glucose tab would she be ok for the night - she said yes. I asked her to
>eat two. We went to sleep. That night, about 3 a.m., I found Emily in my
>arms, sweating profusely, shaking,
> incoherent. I couldn't revive her. Couldn't get a reading on the
>glucometer - too low I guess. No phone to call 911, no food/liquid in the
>house. Luckily, cell phone worked. Paramedics came, stuck many needles in
>Em. The one they sent through her neck worked, she came around.
>After that night I learned a very valuable lesson:
> exercise + no food = coma. Simple.
>After seeing Dr. Masharani with Emily a few weeks later, he said that she
>wouldn't ever have a low again under his care. But he can only advise,
>Emily has to do it.
>So it happens again. Why? Simple (see equation above), too much exercise,
>not enough food. Why did this happen? Can only think of three reasons:
>1) Too stupid to understand equation above
>2) Let's herself go low on purpose for the attention (subconsciously)
>3) Doesn't care
>Any of the above would be unacceptable to me. So what gives? No idea, but
>must understand.
>P.S. - To your points below:
>never said you have mentality of 8 year old. Said an 8 year old would have
>these types of problems, because an 8 year old doesn't yet have the
>reasoning capacity to understand how to control lows.
>Becoming hard to emphasize with  "something frightening happening" to you
>when you bring it on your self. If you want someone to coddle you every
>time you "forget" or "skip" something, that's not me. Yeah, it sucks. Yeah,
>I have no idea what it's like. But I know that if I had it, I would be
>responsible about it. Yes, that means recording, learning, and testing -
>even if it's every fucking 10 minu
>tes. No, that does not mean halting your life - my cousin has had type one
>a lot longer than you, and he keeps his bg stable - AND he has a demanding,
>full time job, two kids, etc. Dr. Masharani laughed at you when you said
>that you were a "brittle" diabetic. So stop making excuses for yourself.
>Your assumption that "these terrible mistakes just happen" is ridiculous!
>Is that like a child abuser saying, hey mistakes happen, I'll try harder
>I never said your disease was "stupid" - it's not. It just is. So deal with
>it. Not 90%, but 110%. It's your life. Your house means nothing. Your job
>means nothing. You are everything - why don't you understand that?
>your last paragraph:
> "Is this the way it is supposed to be?  I have no clue, I just assume I
>should go hard at myself, and let him kick me harder and harder if he
>wants.  I assume that this is what I deserve.  But is it?"
>Nice try. No more letting you divert from the truth. I treat you well,
>always have. I am telling you the truth now, and if you can't handle that
>at age 29 - I feel terribly sorry for you. Enough excuses - either you do
>it or you don't. But don't play sad sack for me, and don't put it on me for
>"kicking you around." The door is right there, if you can't deal with this
>perspective from me, it's prob
>ably best you use it. No hard feelings here.
>P.S. - I can get a cab home tonight. I understand that you are probably
>feeling weak from your episode yesterday, so if you're not going to be at
>the airport, just please leave me a message on my vm :408-947-5536, and
>I'll cab it.
>ReThinking Paper,
>Emily Miggins
>Insulin-Pumpers website http://www.insulin-pumpers.org/

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